Snowballing

There is no doubting that being an adult is a full time job. Life is so busy with day to day things to do. A house to run, shopping to get, emails to reply to. Then there is work on top of that which takes up so much energy, effort and brain power.

I mean I thought life was busy being an adult… then I had kids! Being a mum of two is amazing and I love every minute. I actually love the madness of it all and being organised about day to day things actually makes me feel content.

With one little one at pre-school and the littlest at home with me I can just about keep on top of daily life each day. We try to do little jobs each day to keep on top of things and try to make sure we have some restful downtime at home as well.

This is all well and good until life has other plans. It’s only takes someone getting a cold or a new baby tooth popping through to disrupt the fine balance of getting things done. In the last month each of us have had illnesses and it has definitely taken its toll.

Why is it when one thing goes a little awry, it unsettled you and then things just snowball. We’ve had one thing after another recently and it just snowballs. It becomes exhausting, beyond tiredness, becomes so hard to get back on top of things and back to some sort of normality.

Well that’s just life though isn’t it. The ups and downs and round and rounds. And while I dream of a simple, easy life it’s these things that make life interesting and build our character day on day.

Problem is, life is busy enough right now but it’s getting towards the end of maternity leave and it’s time to think about going back to work. I just don’t know how I’m meant to fit work into life nowadays! I know many others have busier lives and I marvel at how they manage to get it all done. I know I can do it, I have to, and with being organised and keeping on top of the daily things it will all be ok. It’s just those times when poorliness creeps in or exhaustion takes over it just seems impossible.

This is where I need to remember that being a mum comes first. Looking after myself so I can be a good mum comes before first and to just do what you can when you can. The rest will come. While I know it stresses me to not have all the ironing done, or toys all over the living room floor. Adding work back into my life means re-prioritising things and making sure we are a happy and healthy family must come first.