Deciding to be a mum happens at very different times for many different women. Some don’t even actively make the choice, it’s made for them.
I can’t quite remember the first time I really thought about being a mum. I remember being a child myself and like many others playing with dolls and pretending to be mummy. I also remember always wanting a family and throughout my teenage years this consumed more of my thoughts than any career did.
I did however, always known I wanted to work with children and loved being around children with their funny little (sometimes very large) characters! So I guess it’s always been there, that I wanted to be a mum myself and that one day I hopefully would be lucky enough to have a little person call me mum.
Like I said, for some women being mum can happen so easily and for others can be a heart breaking journey. One day i’ll share my journey to mun-hood with you but for now I want to share with you a moment that will last with me forever.
A pregnancy test.
Yes i know, not what i thought i’d write about either. Many women will have taken pregnancy tests throughout their fertile years, some wishing for positive, some a negative and some not knowing what the hell to think or look for.
One line, two lines, the words ‘pregnant’ or ‘not pregnant’ they all have different ways of telling you the news. Some are so very faint you find your hopes or fears to make the reading and some are so clear you just can’t doubt it.
Seeing my first ever positive test was the first moment I truly became mum. Those two little lines, one faint the other clear changed my life forever. I was a mum. Yes there was forever to wait and a million things that could happen between that moment and ‘9 months later’ but as far as I was concerned, no matter what was to happen, we had made a little life, I was beginning to grow a little baby and from that very moment I was… mum. xBx
Being Mum, Being Me 